you do it to yourself, you do, and that's what really hurts

my mouth ulcer has officially been operating for the last nine days..i'm quite sure it's getting comfortable in there.sheesh.

waiting for bran to come over in an hour to play tennis with me..ha can't wait i need to have a proper tan cause i'm so fair now.haha.

anyways i had this nice dream last night that she and I were back to normal again. we were chatting like we were best friends at the grandstand again. guess that's why it's called a dream ya.

then i thought of this song..really applies man..

You do it to yourself, you do
and that's what really hurts
You do it to yourself, just you
you and no-one else
You do it to yourself
You do it to yourself

oh no, she's not a secret now..but nobody cares

met the whole bunch of trackers yesterday and got a little scare from gane about army life..what with cutting frogs' tongues and swinging chicken heads around.sheesh.think i'll be a vegetarian after that traumatic experience.ha.

then watched happy feet after that.was a nice film..not bad and funny too..but my neck was dying from all that straining in the front row.guess that's what happens when we go in twenty minutes late.yea.imagine we went in twenty minutes late and the show still hadn't started.lucky for us..unlucky those who went in early.

was talking hot hot heat with panda amanda yesterday too and about how the music's just so great.gosh i have to confess..amanda's the cutest girl alive ever.haha.

it's no secret now.haha this is for you!

first day of my life

listen to this too. one of my favourites from Bright Eyes.

what a pity

just listen.

what the hell am i doing here? i don't belong here

all this training's finally taking a toll on me. went training this morning so that makes the eight straight day of working out.gosh i must stop this superman mentality.haha

training was alright today actually..saw shi ming and clement for the first time in a long time and i had pretty funny chats with lionel and jackie.was discussing what i'll do if i failed gp for A's

retain in cj one more year.i think it'll be fun because like i probably wouldn't need to study so hard a second time.ha.but nah don't think it'll happen.

i was supposed to meet bren and angie after training but i decided to go home and sleep.i'm meeting them tmr anyway so i thought why not catch up on some sleep.when i woke up i swear it felt like i got banged head first by a double-decker bus. my body felt like it went through a lawn-mower.

anyway i was listening to the acoustic version of Creep by Radiohead about twenty times cause it's so friggin' good. Creep is about a guy in college who never got round to asking this girl that he likes out cause he feels too inferior and basically..like a creep..well frontman thom yorke has confessed to being that guy as he wrote this song when he was in college.i'm a creep sometimes too.bet everyone feels like that once in a while.

this is a special live acoustic version of Creep by Radiohead and U2 just for all you creeps out there!

When you were before, couldn't look in your eye
You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

so you saw her too?

badminton was damn fun today..played like 4 hours with my friends..then went to kelvin's ultra nice house to chill and hang out and what have you...there's everything in his house man..

but i should have gone training..the opportunity cost was too high..gosh she came today and i wasn't there! sheesh..just my luck..but nevermind..just not fated..

so i heard you saw her too?haha everyone's been seeing her except me..

charles saw her in town on mon night watching movie
bren saw her at training today
jesmine saw her in school today
even my sis saw her at chomp chomp today
everyone except me..i told you it's just not fated man..gosh i hate fate

anyway this is for you girl

my morning jacket

woke up this morning thinking "what the hell am i doing on earth? am i doing my part to change the world? have i actually accomplished anything signficant that has changed the lives of the 2.8 billion people who live in poverty?"

i went back to sleep.

going to meet my classmates for a game of badminton later instead of going for training with bren and faye.hope they have a good time with coach.haha.maybe another 10.4km would do the trick.ha.

mean time i listening to one of the songs bran gave me..though it takes a little getting used to..ha but thanks anyway bran!

whee

got around to brandon's house today for a run and just to chill out and all..by the time i left i managed to get a free dinner(while watching discovery channel) and 21 cds for loan.haha.spent some time listening to jeff buckley just now..btw he's dead already so you might not have heard of him.this is one of his nicer tracks.

rule by secrecy

"Rule By Secrecy" - this is a book that litearally took me a whole year to complete.actually i started on it after promos last year but stopped once J2 year started. i picked it up again after A's and finaaly completed it this morning.half the time i didn't know what i was reading though the last part of the book was a little enlightening.on the whole..i would never pick another conspiracy theory book like this again.the author of this book must have assumed that people would be interested with how the rothschilds manipulated the poor to gain their wealth..how secret societies exist among us and all(hell like we don't know there are secret societies everwhere). the last part was stuff about how the bible's a fake and moses was actually the head worker slave of an alien race called the Annukis, who lived on the twelth planet of our solar system, and visited earth once every 3600 years.guess we'll never know if that's true but that's all bull too me.i'm a faith-guy so whatever i've learnt from that book has left me already.

there was a song by Muse dedicated to this book called Ruled By Secrecy(obviously). it's one of my favourites from Muse i hope you like it!

how to spoil your legs

yesterday i decided to spend some time going for track training as a senior.that means i don't have to listen to whatever the coach says.hahaha. i've been wanting to do that for way too long.yesterday i did it!ha..we were supposed to run two rounds macritchie men's route(10.4km) but my friend brendan and I decided that one round was way too much.

i came back thinking that training would be fun and all..but lo ho and behold..there was a grand total of three people who came for training yesterday.well someone was missing too anyway.actually no..two were missing.

went to eat prata with xin ying and lionel after that at my favourite prata place at thomson road! that place brought back many memories of the past though.

what's that you say?

yes hello this is my first ever post for my first ever blog. never did i think that i would do this but i guess the extreme boredom that came along unexpectedly after A's has compelled me to waste whatever time i have on this. was that sentence even right? gosh..guess i have to prepare for army now..where i would probably forget how to read or write anymore.