how to disappear completely(and never be found)

once again, exactly a year on, i am here for a lack of anyone to talk to(and a lack of ability to sleep)

but how ironic that now i'm here i have nothing to say! or rather, i don't exactly know what or how to say it.

i just wish that things didn't get different; that things could be simple. i don't like complicating things and i never did and i hate that it happens more than i want it to. i know that this 'person' you see isn't me but i don't know why he manages to take control so easily. it pains me so much that the only person i want to not see me that way; sees me that way. <\3

i'm sorry for the hurt:(