a new year; a new beginning!

i would say 2010 has been a pretty good year for me! i wouldn't go so far as to say 2010 was perfect (because i have not been a good boy to a certain extent) but there were certainly many good things that happened to me, many things that i would always cherish for many years to come, and someone who loves me so much no matter what!=)

christmas and nye's celebration with kj felt so good and warm and although it is my second time, i still feel like a little child again; full of joy and love and surprise! i cannot believe how i lived before this..and i cannot imagine how i can ever live without this again.

to end off i would like to remember some very nice quotes given to me by my loved one in 2010 that i treasured very much!=)

"in my dreams i'm christmasing with you. holidays are joyful. there's always something new. but everyday's a holiday when i'm near to you"

"you know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams"

"to love is to receive a glimpse of heaven"

"love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own"

thank you 2010, and welcome 2011. be good to me 2011!

what i want; i already have

Si me ves hallarás en mis ojos el amor
eres tú la mitad que a mi vida completó
Lo que soy te daré sin miedo a algun error
creo en ti y dejaré en tus manos mi ilusión.
Quiero estar dentro de tu corazón,
Poder lograr que me ames como yo.

I only wanna be the man
to give you everything I can
every day and every night
love you for all my life.
I don't wanna change the world
as long as you're my girl
it's more than enough,
just to be the man you love.

Quiero ser el lugar donde puedas refugiar
el temor y calmar en mis brazos tu ansiedad
Desde hoy voy a ser todo para ti
Hasta ayer te soñé y ahora estás aquí
Quiero oir tus secretos, lo que sueñes descubrir,
quiero amarte así.

I only wanna be the man
to give you everything I can
every day and every night
love you for all my life.
I don't wanna change the world
as long as you're my girl
it's more than enough,
just to be the man you love.

Just to be the man you love <3

why do you leave me in between siamese cities?

times like this i wish i didn't have a brain so i wouldn't think so much

i need some peace and some release

i hope it's not going to be a sleepless night.

because

because you're still the last thing on my mind before i sleep and the first when i wake
because i still light up like a 500,000 kilowatt bulb when i get a message from you in the morning
because i still can't wait to meet you whenever i can
because i still love giving you surprises
because you still give me butterflies
because i see a great future with you
because you're everything
because (etc)

and that's why i'm yours <3

how to disappear completely(and never be found)

once again, exactly a year on, i am here for a lack of anyone to talk to(and a lack of ability to sleep)

but how ironic that now i'm here i have nothing to say! or rather, i don't exactly know what or how to say it.

i just wish that things didn't get different; that things could be simple. i don't like complicating things and i never did and i hate that it happens more than i want it to. i know that this 'person' you see isn't me but i don't know why he manages to take control so easily. it pains me so much that the only person i want to not see me that way; sees me that way. <\3

i'm sorry for the hurt:(

morning glory

it all started on 24aug2008, at 5 in the morning specially to wish me luck

then again for any subsequent race i'd done after that in the morning

then it was every tuesday morning at 7am

then it was today again at 630am for my first ahm training of the year

for whatever reason, at whatever time; every single time she does it, it puts a huge huge huge smile on my face. when i'm cold, alone, sleepy, and tired, having that is the best way to jumpstart my day because i am reminded once again of the love, care, and dedication that i get from her. and it makes me so so so happy <3

the problem with time

here and now, daryl, here and now.

love is a symbol of eternity. it wipes out all sense of time destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end